Today i went out with Pearlydear and Elmadear. We had lunch at ClarkeQuay Waraku. They came so late la! haha. so i was waiting for them by the riverside...

A few months ago, i went there almost every week, sat by the riverside... thinking of the past, thinking of a lot of questions, thinking of why pple change, feelings fade, why why whys, how how hows... My sky was dark, my future was bleak, my heart was torn apart...

Today, i sat at the same place. But with a totally different attitude. I feel the sun shine right through my heart, the wind blow away my troubles, the clear blue sky makes me smile. It's sunny day in my heart! Yess, the scar is still there. When i revisited the past, i still tear. The pain makes me shiver. I told myself, never will i ever want to experience that kinda pain again.

Never.

Probably that's why i never dare to take the first step.
Prolly that's why I become a cactus.

I don't ever want to relive that hurt.

I saw this lady place a yellow paper boat in the river, and she walked off quickly without turning back to take another look at the paper boat. I started to wonder... why will the paperboat go? what was the lady's intention of doing that? how was she feeling when she place the paperboat in the river?

"It'll go to where she wants it to go! Because of belief, it doesn't go where it goes because she believes it will go to where she'd want it to be! =)"

It applies to us as well. As long as we believe in what we want, we will always get it. It's all in the mind. True enough, sometimes, things aren't within our control. But hey! We have done our best. yea?

Alrights, enough of emo-ing.

Here's our lunch at Waraku!!! The egg broke! oops.

After our lunch, we went to douby. On our way there...

And! i am supposed to have tuition TONIGHT. from 6pm to 9pm. That's why i planned today and tomorrow properly le. Tomorrow it's supposed to be my BAKING DAY!!! but, they decided to change it to tmr. and they tell me so last minute. goodness. this is not the first time they change tuition timings or cancel tuition so last minute. i understand that there are times when the school requires them to stay back or etc. but what about the other times when they just want to cancel for no reason? just because they are tired from school or just finish a test paper? come on! im so not tired from my school stuff. and you think it's the end of the world aft one small test??? rubbish.

ok, never mind. so i went home den i grumbled to my mummy. I swear i was only grumbling in my usual tone! and she raised her voice at me! like what the. i tried to keep quite, but i couldn't control my temper anymore and tada! we quarrelled. i shant go into the details what we said. in summary, we just quarrelled. period.

I hate it.
I hate quarrels.
Especially quarrels with my mum.

Argh.

Im in a super foul mood tonight.

*but thanks pearlydear. she played online games with me to cheer me up. thanks huggs.*