many things in one post
Although i know how ugly humankind can be, how ppl will make use of each other, how nothing is built on forever and at one point or another my trust will be broken and i will get hurt, but i still believe that there's good out there. Just that, im not lucky to meet one. Im not ready to break down my wall. Im contented with the way im feeling.

yupps.

today quite a sian-ed day. as in, maybe i woke up at the wrong side of my bed; maybe cux my shoulders are aching; maybe cux my mum talks alotalotalot (gosh); maybe cux i received that sms. sighs. duno leh. just quite sian-ed. that's why im feeling quite bad towards zac now. went shopping with him. it's tiring de lo plus im a lil moody in the first place le. well, he got what he wanted. so it's quite a fruitful trip. yuppps! sorry zac if i looked bored or sian-ed. wanted to tell you what happened. but i duno how to say and din wana dampen the shopping day. heh.

sometimes i feel like talking, cux i find the right words to say. but most of the times, i really duno how to start saying. especially when i have to start saying from the start. so i rather keep it to myself.
i guess what you said is right. when someone has formed empty spaces in your lives, it's difficult to close up the gaps. no matter what, it's different. cux you will want the person to experience it with you. not from what you say... sighs. but in lives, it's really difficult not to form gaps ba. esp when friends go on seperate ways...
and you are right. no matter what, family members, esp parents (in my case and most ppl's case) are the ones who will never ever leave you, even in times of conflict of interests.

yesterday, i accompanied my mum to the temple to visit our shifu. she wanted to ask shifu abt her own funeral, like what to wear, how to prepare and she had a few questions which troubled her a long time le, so need to ask shifu for advice. haha. but mainly is abt what happens aft her death. she wants me to go, so that i know what i need to do or prepare as well.-.- my mum arh... thinks too much. in the past when i was young, i will cry whenever she talked abt her death. now, ha. im used to it. -.-
but still... somehow will be worried and scared de la...

anyways. crispyprawn's postcard from cambodia made my day!!! thanks cui xia!!! :))